This is a photo of Maro, our cat.
Maro died in July 2020 after a two-month battle with the disease.
The two months after I became aware of my illness went by quickly.
I wondered if MARO would have been saved if I had noticed it sooner.
I also wondered if there was a better treatment.
Even now, I continue to regret it.
I didn’t notice cat’s illness
At first, I questioned whether I’d noticed the early signs of illness—and I deeply regret that.
Maro was a patient cat who never showed any pain or hardship.
Even when he was bullied by another cat (Sora) who lived with him, he rarely fought back and endured it patiently.
Maro must have been in pain and hardship, but he endured it.
The vet said, “What a good boy. Very patient. Let’s live a little longer.”
My response when Maro was alive
Next, I regretted my actions.
Malo was a cat that shed a lot of hair, and he was a cat who always rubbed his forehead against me.
At times, I felt bothered by it.
After changing into clothes for going out, I had trouble getting cat’s hair on my clothes.
There was a time when I refused to let a cat sit on my lap.
Looking back now, I wish I had shown him more love.
Over the past two weeks, I have done my best to nurture Maro, but it has still not been enough.
My Regrets After MARO Passing Away
My memories turned into profound regrets.
Maro is no longer here, so even if you want to pour out love him now, it won’t happen.
Why didn’t I show him love then?
Regrets that seem to last forever begin.
How did I recover from my regrets?
I was able to recover from this regret.
What would you like to do if you could meet cat?
One day, as I searched online for a way to reconnect with a pet in heaven, I stumbled across a page that asked:
“If you could meet him, what would you do for him?”
I wanted to pour out love as much as I could.
I want to put Maro on my lap.
I want to pat him on the head.
Also, Maro was on a restricted diet because he ate too much, so I wanted to let him eat delicious rice to his heart’s content.
It hit me soon after: in Maro’s final two weeks, I had been doing all of those things.
Maro was on my lap every day.
At that time, I poured out love as much as I could.
I made it okay to eat as much delicious food as he wanted (although Maro didn’t eat much at the end…).
What I did for Maro may not have been enough, but it may have been satisfying for the last two months for Maro.
The moment I thought that Maro must have departed with a happy feeling, my regrets disappeared.
Count what you did rather than what you couldn’t do
Maro was gone, and the regrets gradually disappeared.
After that, I made an album of cats.
I found so many photos—of us playing together, him sleeping, me gently stroking his head and body.
“I was playing with Maro properly.”
When I realized this myself, I felt very happy and was able to see Maro off.
Tears flow a lot, but now I am happy.
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